I'm not.... [ Trailing off, maybe he's too tired to protest that right now. ]
There's a lot to go through. [ Given how disjointed his words are, he's still pretty drowsy. ] Can you tell me what happened after I died? At my trial, I mean.
[ Well, at least that's one way he could tell it's not someone else in Natsuno's body this time, even though he was pretty sure by now that wasn't the case. ]
There is. I don't mind, but you might want to sit up for this one.
[ ...And then there is the equivalent to a blacking out scene as Riku explains everything that happened at the trial because holy shit. ]
...And that's about the size of it. You manage to get everything?
Heh, suppose it does. [ He cracks a slight smile of sorts. ] I imagine he just happened to get lucky; I'm just glad we managed to catch him for what he did.
[ More than glad, but Riku figures that he doesn't need to spell it all out for Natsuno. ]
No, I was stupid. I should have never been that close to the chapel in the first place.
[ ...but that's been mostly handled, for now. He shifts a bit to rest his face onto his palm. ]
I expected Erhard to break, but not like that. I thought he reminded me of someone, but that was obviously just my past trying to chase me. I want to say I should have killed him when I was feeding off of him, but he didn't even deserve that. I told him all along I was a monster too, but I think he wanted to help me out of guilt. But in that case, Anon and I deserve the same treatment.
A life is a life, and no self-righteous bullshit changes that.
...I don't think I can blame you for that. It was Syaoran's fault in the first place.
[ Riku's learned that he can, in fact, still hold grudges, so yeah he's dunking on the brunet some. In a way, Syaoran is lucky that he's not the type to be viciously vengeful.
Otherwise, Riku is sure he could've made his exit point much more painful...emotionally speaking. Anon had him more than covered on the physical front there... ]
Erhard had always seemed like the type of person who'd give himself into darkness easily at the drop of a hat. The last time I'd spoken to him privately, he was having a hard time seeing beyond his own past, and his suffering.
[ At first, Riku had felt it was disheartening, knowing he'd been there; when all he could think about were his own regrets and suffering. But...he understood there was a difference between him and Erhard. He'd always been trying his best to better himself, to atone, even if he at one point thought he didn't deserve the friendship and love of those close to him. ]
He definitely went too far, but it's hard to say if it's something he regrets.
[ That gets a small grin out of Natsuno—misery loves company. ]
Yeah, he told me all about it. I was an outlet for him, a way for him to atone for the crime he thought he committed. [ And Natsuno was honestly fine with that. ]
He doesn't. But I'll make him pay for it one day. Right now it's impossible but..I guess passive immortality is pretty useful.
[ Though at the rest, Riku's expression becomes kind of...unreadable as he considered some things.
He guesses he'd hoped too much. In a way, he expected it--someone important to Erhard had died, so it wasn't really black and white. Still, there was a line that was crossed, and...well, there's no point thinking too hard on that now at the moment. ]
Speaking of which, does this mean you've regained everything you'd lost? With your abilities, I mean.
[ Granted he wasn't sure how much Natsuno had lost exactly, but he doesn't think the other had retained everything if he remembered correctly. ]
We were using each other. [ It's an important distinction to make, because Natsuno is long past accepting his true nature. ]
More than that, actually. [ He's laying on his stomach which is a good position for showing off vast dark brown wings which appear out of nowhere. They only linger for a moment, but they were undeniably real. ]
Marchosias. Another mouthful to Natsuno Yuuki-Koide. [ He kinda sounds amused though. At the fourth name he should probably just embrace it at this point. ]
[ He'll quip, before deciding to move to a chair to sit down, placing his arms on top of the chair, sitting in, but more of less having his front against where his back should be normally. ]
[ Sighing he sinks into the bed and plush a bit. Yeah it's best to start somewhere, and it's probably a good test to tell more than one person. ]
Tohru was my best friend. My only friend, I guess. I don't really like people, so it never mattered to me that I was alone or whatever. I didn't want any friends in Sotoba, because I wasn't sticking around. I was going to leave as soon as I could.
But that guy... [ Playing with the fur on the plush, it takes him a second to snap back into the present. ]
He always talked to me. Never left me alone. And at some point, I just got used to it. We didn't have anything in common, but he didn't care that I was...me. Even though he was friends with everyone in Sotoba, who didn't like me for one reason or another—he was always there.
Until he wasn't. The Shiki got him early on, and I had no idea what to do after that. I didn't believe it, really.
[ He'll pause here because that was a lot, and because he feels the need to move again. Flipping over on his back he lets the plush fall off to the side. ]
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Yeah, yeah you always- [ Opening up one bleary red eye. ]
...Riku?
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Yeah, it's me. I thought I should come by after everything that happened.
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Ah. I... [ Opening both eyes now. ] I don't understand, but thanks. It's been a week but it feels like a lot longer.
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[ Riku's got your back, Natsuno.
Even if the situation's difficult, that will never change. ]
...It feels like it's been awhile since I've seen you, so I can't say I don't know the feeling.
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There's a lot to go through. [ Given how disjointed his words are, he's still pretty drowsy. ] Can you tell me what happened after I died? At my trial, I mean.
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There is. I don't mind, but you might want to sit up for this one.
[ ...And then there is the equivalent to a blacking out scene as Riku explains everything that happened at the trial because holy shit. ]
...And that's about the size of it. You manage to get everything?
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You both... [ Laughing a bit, light and dark all at once. ]
It makes sense that you two would get along. I should have been able to kill Tsubasa myself, but that's the next best thing.
[ There's more he has to comment on, but he's going to enjoy hearing all those details just for a moment. ]
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Heh, suppose it does. [ He cracks a slight smile of sorts. ] I imagine he just happened to get lucky; I'm just glad we managed to catch him for what he did.
[ More than glad, but Riku figures that he doesn't need to spell it all out for Natsuno. ]
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[ ...but that's been mostly handled, for now. He shifts a bit to rest his face onto his palm. ]
I expected Erhard to break, but not like that. I thought he reminded me of someone, but that was obviously just my past trying to chase me. I want to say I should have killed him when I was feeding off of him, but he didn't even deserve that. I told him all along I was a monster too, but I think he wanted to help me out of guilt. But in that case, Anon and I deserve the same treatment.
A life is a life, and no self-righteous bullshit changes that.
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[ Riku's learned that he can, in fact, still hold grudges, so yeah he's dunking on the brunet some. In a way, Syaoran is lucky that he's not the type to be viciously vengeful.
Otherwise, Riku is sure he could've made his exit point much more painful...emotionally speaking. Anon had him more than covered on the physical front there... ]
Erhard had always seemed like the type of person who'd give himself into darkness easily at the drop of a hat. The last time I'd spoken to him privately, he was having a hard time seeing beyond his own past, and his suffering.
[ At first, Riku had felt it was disheartening, knowing he'd been there; when all he could think about were his own regrets and suffering. But...he understood there was a difference between him and Erhard. He'd always been trying his best to better himself, to atone, even if he at one point thought he didn't deserve the friendship and love of those close to him. ]
He definitely went too far, but it's hard to say if it's something he regrets.
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Yeah, he told me all about it. I was an outlet for him, a way for him to atone for the crime he thought he committed. [ And Natsuno was honestly fine with that. ]
He doesn't. But I'll make him pay for it one day. Right now it's impossible but..I guess passive immortality is pretty useful.
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[ Though at the rest, Riku's expression becomes kind of...unreadable as he considered some things.
He guesses he'd hoped too much. In a way, he expected it--someone important to Erhard had died, so it wasn't really black and white. Still, there was a line that was crossed, and...well, there's no point thinking too hard on that now at the moment. ]
Speaking of which, does this mean you've regained everything you'd lost? With your abilities, I mean.
[ Granted he wasn't sure how much Natsuno had lost exactly, but he doesn't think the other had retained everything if he remembered correctly. ]
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More than that, actually. [ He's laying on his stomach which is a good position for showing off vast dark brown wings which appear out of nowhere. They only linger for a moment, but they were undeniably real. ]
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[ ...
Wait. Give him a moment. ]
When did you receive your wings?
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I added another name too, with it.
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The name you were given?
[ When he was brought back as a seemingly normalish person with a medical condition ?? ]
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Marchosias. Another mouthful to Natsuno Yuuki-Koide. [ He kinda sounds amused though. At the fourth name he should probably just embrace it at this point. ]
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...I think I'm going to stick to just Natsuno. I'm sure you'll understand.
[ Quirking his lips slightly. ]
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[ He'll quip, before deciding to move to a chair to sit down, placing his arms on top of the chair, sitting in, but more of less having his front against where his back should be normally. ]
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Tohru used to call me that no matter how many times I told him I hated it. But Tohru doesn't matter anymore.
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I don't think you've told me much about Tohru.
[ He'll leave the thread hanging there - if he wants to tell him about the other or not. ]
But, I think it's good to leave behind something that was holding you back.
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Do you want to know?
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I would. How'd you two know each other?
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Tohru was my best friend. My only friend, I guess. I don't really like people, so it never mattered to me that I was alone or whatever. I didn't want any friends in Sotoba, because I wasn't sticking around. I was going to leave as soon as I could.
But that guy... [ Playing with the fur on the plush, it takes him a second to snap back into the present. ]
He always talked to me. Never left me alone. And at some point, I just got used to it. We didn't have anything in common, but he didn't care that I was...me. Even though he was friends with everyone in Sotoba, who didn't like me for one reason or another—he was always there.
Until he wasn't. The Shiki got him early on, and I had no idea what to do after that. I didn't believe it, really.
[ He'll pause here because that was a lot, and because he feels the need to move again. Flipping over on his back he lets the plush fall off to the side. ]
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