[ Finding Natsuno isn't hard at all, but it might take more than a few knocks for him to answer. Drowsily, he blinks through the haze of sleep and opens the door. ]
...good morning? [ He is still very asleep still, apparently. ]
Oh. [ He blinks at that, thinks a few seconds and... ]
It's fine. You can come in. [ Stepping aside and going to plop down on the bed. The room is still exactly the way the Anon left it, but the bed is unmade and it looks like he was sleeping with the pompom plush. ]
[ He runs a hand through his bangs and rubs under his eyes a bit. Maybe just getting the sleep out of his eyes, or more likely it's that everything is still a lot right now. ]
I'm not used to it. People usually didn't like me, even before I was a jinrou.
I think that just reveals more fault in them than in you.
[ Granted, she tends not to think too highly of humans in the first place, especially when it comes to their judgment and treatment of other people who are different from them, but she feels particularly strongly about it in this case. They're all villains, huh...?
She leans back onto her palms and looks up at the ceiling, exhaling slowly. ]
Anon-kun... ended up meaning a lot to me too, and I'm really going to miss him. But... he seemed genuinely happy about getting to bring you back in his place.
[ Turning her head back toward him, she smiles, sincere. ]
So I'm sure it was the right choice, and I'm happy about it too.
I don't mind. I'd rather be me than what everyone else thinks I should be.
[ Or a protag who's not afraid to wear a villain suit. ]
I still don't really understand. But it's what he wanted, and I'll always accept that. And you're the same way, huh? [ His words are a little disjointed, but they're all very candid. It's also odd speaking to someone else like this who's not well, Anon. But he can make an effort in this case, even if it might be a poor one. ]
I know. That was one of the things he liked about you.
[ Her gaze shifts slightly to where she's looking past him, toward the spot on the floor where Anon had been lying when she'd asked him about those things before. ]
We both believed in only doing things we intend to go all the way through with, and accepting the consequences without regrets. So even if I don't like every choice he made, I respect them.
[ She smiles at the pompom. Despite everything that's happened, she thinks they were both good for each other. Her own philosophy will probably never align perfectly with either of theirs, but that's fine. It's close enough on plenty of points that matter. ]
I didn't make enough of an effort to get to know you the first time, so there might not be that much reason to trust me when I say this, but I'll be on your side as long as we're both here now.
[ She'll go ahead and stand up; she already interrupted his sleep, so she's not going to keep him up forever. ]
So if there's ever anything you think I can do for you, you're welcome to ask.
A lot of people didn't. But that doesn't matter. If he trusted you then...I can trust you too. [ He watches as she stands and nods. As tenuous as his words may sound, there's a resolute quality to them too. ]
The same goes for you. I'm no longer part of this game like you, but that doesn't mean I'm completely removed from it either.
[ Guess who's getting a visit this morning? Well morning is kind of debatable, it's almost eleven. ]
Emi? It's Koide. [ Knocking on her door all polite like, which may or may not have to do with the fact that he's never been in her room before and therefore has to follow modern decorum because vampire rules. ]
[ Well, at least she was only two nails in to this fresh polish application, so she just closes the bottle and comes to open the door, carefully keeping those nails from bumping into anything. ]
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week 5 saturday night
...good morning? [ He is still very asleep still, apparently. ]
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Ah... Sorry, it's still night, actually.
[ She offers an apologetic smile. ]
I can come back in the morning instead if you want.
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It's fine. You can come in. [ Stepping aside and going to plop down on the bed. The room is still exactly the way the Anon left it, but the bed is unmade and it looks like he was sleeping with the pompom plush. ]
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[ She's also going to sit on the edge of the bed, actually, but it's a respectable distance away so it's fine. ]
I imagine that must have been pretty disorienting.
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Eh, it's my third time. I should probably be used to it by now.
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How do you feel about it this time?
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I wanted to die the first two times. This time, I didn't. So it's...better.
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[ It's something of a relief, honestly. ]
Anon-kun really cares about you a lot... but I think you must already know that.
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[ He runs a hand through his bangs and rubs under his eyes a bit. Maybe just getting the sleep out of his eyes, or more likely it's that everything is still a lot right now. ]
I'm not used to it. People usually didn't like me, even before I was a jinrou.
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[ Granted, she tends not to think too highly of humans in the first place, especially when it comes to their judgment and treatment of other people who are different from them, but she feels particularly strongly about it in this case. They're all villains, huh...?
She leans back onto her palms and looks up at the ceiling, exhaling slowly. ]
Anon-kun... ended up meaning a lot to me too, and I'm really going to miss him. But... he seemed genuinely happy about getting to bring you back in his place.
[ Turning her head back toward him, she smiles, sincere. ]
So I'm sure it was the right choice, and I'm happy about it too.
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[ Or a protag who's not afraid to wear a villain suit. ]
I still don't really understand. But it's what he wanted, and I'll always accept that. And you're the same way, huh? [ His words are a little disjointed, but they're all very candid. It's also odd speaking to someone else like this who's not well, Anon. But he can make an effort in this case, even if it might be a poor one. ]
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[ Her gaze shifts slightly to where she's looking past him, toward the spot on the floor where Anon had been lying when she'd asked him about those things before. ]
We both believed in only doing things we intend to go all the way through with, and accepting the consequences without regrets. So even if I don't like every choice he made, I respect them.
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I can't say I've done everything properly. But I only do what I want. And I know what I want, right now. And I'm not going to let anything stop me.
[ There's usually not much inflection in his tone, but here it shines through brightly. Maybe more so, given how far it is from his norm. ]
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I'm glad.
[ She smiles at the pompom. Despite everything that's happened, she thinks they were both good for each other. Her own philosophy will probably never align perfectly with either of theirs, but that's fine. It's close enough on plenty of points that matter. ]
I didn't make enough of an effort to get to know you the first time, so there might not be that much reason to trust me when I say this, but I'll be on your side as long as we're both here now.
[ She'll go ahead and stand up; she already interrupted his sleep, so she's not going to keep him up forever. ]
So if there's ever anything you think I can do for you, you're welcome to ask.
[ Her own room is right around the corner. ]
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The same goes for you. I'm no longer part of this game like you, but that doesn't mean I'm completely removed from it either.
week 6 thursday morningish
Emi? It's Koide. [ Knocking on her door all polite like, which may or may not have to do with the fact that he's never been in her room before and therefore has to follow modern decorum because vampire rules. ]
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[ Well, at least she was only two nails in to this fresh polish application, so she just closes the bottle and comes to open the door, carefully keeping those nails from bumping into anything. ]
Good morning. Did you want to come in?
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Yeah, if I could. [ Standing obediently outside the threshold of her door. ]
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Of course, come in.
[ Steps aside and holds the door open. ]
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You sing, right?Β
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Hm? A little bit, I guess.
[ She's been enjoying karaoke here, anyway. ]
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βSo don't go breaking my heart
I won't go breaking your heart
Don't go breaking my heartβ
Mash will be all right.β ]
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Oh...
[ She smiles down at it, warmer and more genuine than what most of the people here usually see from her. ]
Ann-chan told me you'd given her that note from Ryuji-kun too.
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That's stupid, Ryuji is dead. I just showed her some stupid goat magazine spread. [ Well he actually sounds really angry about this, so rip Ann. ]
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Ah, I guess I misinterpreted, then.
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Sorry, my head hurts from last night. Riku told me that there was a karaoke party thing last week. I guess I kind of regret missing it.
I like listening to other people sing. [ As abrupt of a mood shift as this is, it sounds genuine. ]
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[ And a lot of drinking. Those two things probably aren't unrelated. ]
Are you asking me to sing this for you?
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You're sure you don't sing?
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[ He waves his hand though, because if that's what she really wants to sing he's all for it. ]