What you saw... that happened 50 years ago. The way it happened for me... she managed to save me by shoving me in that capsule, and I saw them shoot her dead. [he leans back against the chair, eyes overbright] Maria didn't have a mean bone in her body. She was sick... she'd always been sick. They didn't... I still don't know why.
[Shadow sighs. He can't get super drunk, but his thoughts can still get... fuzzy. Hazy, around the edges]
I didn't phrase that correctly. I know why -- she got between them and their goal, which was capturing me. But it's the cruelty I don't understand. They could have just... taken her into custody. [scoff] And then they had the gall to call it an "accident".
[ Natsuno leans onto his palm, almost looking bored but his tone doesn't match. ]
Humans are capable of intense cruelty. I was one, and I remember. They're also fond of their excuses too. They hate having a guilty conscience as much as they hate accepting responsibility for their actions.
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I don't want to experience it again.
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I decided to be myself. [ And then a smile that's a bit lopsided, but it's unmistakably a smile still. ] There has to be another path.
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Well then. That's as good a reason to live as any.
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What about you? Do you still enjoy running from death?
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I've always been too fast for death to catch up to me. Even though that day... I was ready to die... I'm glad I didn't. I still have work to do.
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Because of Maria? [ He was listening, that day. ]
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I have a promise to her I must keep.
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If there's not another path, you make one.
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What you saw... that happened 50 years ago. The way it happened for me... she managed to save me by shoving me in that capsule, and I saw them shoot her dead. [he leans back against the chair, eyes overbright] Maria didn't have a mean bone in her body. She was sick... she'd always been sick. They didn't... I still don't know why.
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Maybe they didn't understand, maybe they were scared, maybe they were selfish—humans come up with so many excuses.
Do you want to find the answer?
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I didn't phrase that correctly. I know why -- she got between them and their goal, which was capturing me. But it's the cruelty I don't understand. They could have just... taken her into custody. [scoff] And then they had the gall to call it an "accident".
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Humans are capable of intense cruelty. I was one, and I remember. They're also fond of their excuses too. They hate having a guilty conscience as much as they hate accepting responsibility for their actions.
They don't understand themselves.